I am not a smart girl, a lot of time I am trying to be as independent as possible, but ended up I cant handle anything at all. When stituation comes I would just cry about things. Maybe I should start thinking about to prevent and handle problems before it hits me.

Since June, I am going to just work at clinic. I have to say GOODBYE to my Dunkin Donuts. I have been working there since I was in the high school. I started the job from 4 yrs ago. I would really miss my co-workers, the other of my co-worker, sonia is quitting it too. This would be the last week for her to working at Dunkin Donuts. She got a new job at Sears, I would really miss working with her alot. She is a really nice girl with a BIG goal. I wish I could have sister like her, I got influence by her all the time. She likes to study and reading, since I was too lazy to read, In a way, she bought me up on the reading.

I GOT SO BAD LUCK> _ < I lost my cellphone yesterday, now I got to get a new phone, I hate to looking for cheap, used phones. I never lose a cellphone, how bad luck this is...... Well, I would try to get a replace phone in 30 days. otherwise I would lose much more than I already lost.

I bought a new book today. It's called The Five People you meet in Heaven. When I first start reading it, I didnt think it would be that interesting. It's about a old man die on his 83rd birthday, he died by saving a 8 yrs old little girl. Then the first people he met after he dies tell him, he would meet five people in the heaven, those five people are a part of yours. They are a part of ur life, they make u understand ur life better after u died. I think that would be pretty interesting to understand the mean of life by reading this books.

This is a pretty old song, I wonder why I even put it on, anyway I like it...

I got a stomache today while I was working, so mostly the time, I was just watching other people working. I dont feel lucky about that because I dont like to taking pain for several hours instead working. I found three books at online yesterday, I am gonna go to bookstore and check them out. The books are THIN AIR by Storm Constantine, The Five People You Meet In Heaven by Mitch Albom, and My Fault by Billy Childish. I am very tired got to go load up some energies with food.

How to Defeat MEAN girls?

PLAY HER game

You're minding your business when some mean girl loud-whispers to her friend that your boyfriend's only with you because you put out. You want to ignore her, but she 'll probably keep going until you respond. So do. Say something like, "If you've got a problem with me, tell me." I know this is terrifying, but it'll remind her that you're an actual person instead of just some girl who's dating the guy she likes. If someone had responded to me that way, I would've become a coward immiediately and been like, "I didn't mean to insult you. I'm just saying we all think you're really pretty, and we're jealous."

TURN IT BACK on her

I have a friend who's so good at derailing mean people on the attack. His boss might be yelling at him, and my friend will go, "How are you doing? Are you having a hard day? You seem kind of tense." So without saying anything bad to him, he just knocks him off-kilter--it's like a gentle attitude check. The mean girl is expecting you just to take her snipes. But if you can muster the ability to talk to her directly, it will take the wind out of her and show her you can't be intimidated.

CHANGE YOUR focus

If some girl wants to despise you, she'll spin everything you do into a web of insults. And you sort of have no control over what she does. So instead of wating time obsessing about why she has it out for you, concentrate on boosting someone else's confidence instead. In your friends always has an outcast, someone who could use a friend. Like some girl with dandruff....Here's a suggestion: Be nice to those kids. You dont't have to make a big show of it--just privately vow to do one act of kindness for every the mean girls lay off you. But you'll respect yourself more(and that's the whole point!) Therein lies your power.

I went to Brooklyn Botanic Garden after work. This weekend is Annual Cherry Blossom Festival, Sakura Matsuri. This New York City spring tradition celebrates the flowering of the 'Kanzan' cherry trees on the Garden's famous Cherry Esplanade as well as the more than three dozen varieties of Japanese cherry that create a magnificent sea of pink and white throughout the Garden. The admission fee is only $5 for adult and child under 16 for free, also if u are a student that would be only $2. I got so excited when staff giving out sakura tattoo. We saw a lot of cherry trees and flowers. It was so beautiful and peaceful. It is like a place to escape the stressful life, it makes people feel so relaxing.

On the Friday, I went shopping with one of my co-worker, sonia. As we walk by the coffee shop, I glance at the coffee shop, suddenly, I see someone that look like a friend of mine from High School. I went back to the shop, and my friend recognize me, too. We both were so excited to see each other, we haven't met after I graduated. She became even prettier than before. I really missed her. She was so amazed to see me, she said how I got so beautiful and skinny. I guess I was fat when I was in High School.Later, I am going to put her picture up, so every one could see how pretty she is... think about that we've been apart about 2 years, how coincident we met up again.

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What has happened must be for our good in some way, hard as that may be to comprehend.